I do.... Not know.

Man... I honestly don't know if I can see myself getting married. I'm 32 and my parents have been married 35 years. That's fucking amazing but I do know it's hard and am I able to be that into one woman that I'd be willing to put up with her and only her? There's nothing about marriage that makes me want to do it other than the fact that if she cheats on me I can threaten to leave unless she grants me three sexual fantasies in which they all involve me and 2-3 women. Other than that it just doesn't quite make me too eager to make that happen. Now don't get me wrong I want a long term all the way committed relationship but what if I just get bored one day or she does and just what's to skate? We can go our separate ways with no legal matters or money involved. Marriage seems so final and I haven't seen too many just all the way happy couples. Yeah they exist but maybe I'm not looking for them. Who knows. Most of the time when I see a married dude I feel sorry for him. Some do seem miserable lol but then some wouldn't want to be around anyone but their wife and that's crazy dope! Those are the ones you see at the club with their wife or taking the funny pictures or something. I can see that being cool. I don't know it's just weird like when I'm at a wedding (been to a few of my boy's weddings this year) I'm always happy for them and feel like it's a such thing as true love but I can never picture myself doing it. Then if I do see myself getting married I always imagine it being like a sitcom. Does that mean it won't be real? Maybe it's because 95 percent of the marriages I see all are the wife and 2-4 kids, white picket fence, coaching the little league, church every Sunday, matching wardrobe family portrait type families. ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with that. I respect it but it's not for me. One of my favorite shows is Californication and if anyone watches you know how dysfunctional they are but I can identify with it or it seems more appealing than the previously mentioned situation. So what does that say about me? And if this post makes no sense to you imagine how I feel.