Comfort Zone

I was having a conversation with my bro the last night and we were talking about how far we've come and where we'd like to go. We talked about his past and how it shaped his life up to this point and mine as well. He said when he came back home in his eyes I was the man. Granted it was a small city but still. I played football and I was popular I guess. I was known on campus and around town and got a lot of love. Then he asked "what happened?" Suggesting that I fell off. Honestly I never cared about attention or being the man so that type of label is easy to break away from. I've never cared about attention, in fact I've pretty much tried to avoid a lot of attention because I'm actually really awkward in social settings. I don't have the confidence to walk up to a woman and talk to her. I'd rather not even go out to the clubs and what not. Well I take that back. I don't mind going out just as long as I don't have to interact with too many people (unless they're strippers). The older I've gotten (32 years old tomorrow) I've realized how much of an introvert I am. I like being home with my thoughts. I like writing and I'm starting to read more. When I was younger I hadn't really realized who I was like most people haven't at that age. Now I fully accept who I am and how dope I think I am. If I think I'm dope there has to be at least one other person on this earth who thinks I am too. Looking back I can't believe I went out as much or was on the scene as much. Now when I go out or go anywhere, nobody knows my name or anything about me. Nobody knows what I do. No women are really checking for me like that. It's actually a good feeling because now I have the element of surprise and I can go from not noticeable to the most amazing personality from a simple conversation. Getting to a place where you're comfortable with who you are is a good place to be. I don't give a f**k what anybody thinks of me.