It's funny how things can hit you. One minute you're up watching television then the next you're crying about something. Well maybe not crying crying but a few tears may have fallen due to the freezing temperatures outside. (Yeah that's it) But for whatever reason that's me right now. Not too many things get to me enough to make me that sensitive. I'm a grown man who can admit that it's ok to be sensitive at times. I'm like that over people that I really care about and I guess I just found out about love too. Coming off a rough last few months where I lost my girlfriend and my grandfather passed away a month later I've tried to isolate myself a little bit. In doing so I've had a lot of time to think and reflect. Instead of hiding from everything by going out and meeting people I wanted to just be alone with my thoughts. I recently went to Houston for my birthday weekend to get away and clear my head and it definitely helped. (I also went to the strip club three times but thats neither here nor there) I was out there with my cousins and a few friends. I had a great time and it was a lot of love out there. And right now watching a show, three friends all told the other friend they loved him. I know this might seem kind of weird but I try to make sure I tell the people I love that I do love them. Most people including my family have a hard time saying it back or have a weird response. I make sure I tell my son every single time I see him or we talk. I make sure I tell my friends as well. I don't really recall my family saying it to me when I was younger. I guess they weren't big on saying it even though we definitely have a lot of love between us. The more I write this the crazier I feel about it, but I just like to know people actually love me because you never know. I feel like most of it is fake. (Even from the strippers but I'll accept that) Anybody can say they love you or are in love but it's mostly bullshit they feed you because they're too scared to eat it themselves. When I feel love from people no matter what our relationship is, I make sure I show love back to them. Having love for people is really what makes this world. That's what God wants. We won't ever be perfect but we can love. Love is perfect. But I guess the reason I shed a few tears is because I just like to hear people say they love me first so I know you actually feel it and it's not just a response. That's not really too much to ask.
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